Wednesday, March 20, 2013

Identity Crisis: Robins Final Blog from Kenya

In a previous blog I mentioned Tracy, the 23 year-old Kenyan who took in 21 street children. I related her story about the two little boys who were sleeping in a ditch and saw some men across the way breaking into someone’s stall [crude structures for selling vegetables and wares] and called out to them by name. In response, the men came across the road and murdered the boys.
Who cared? They had no identity.

Unlike me! I carry all of my identity information around my neck everywhere I go here. I came to Kenya knowing who I was. I am returning home after 6 weeks wondering who I really am.  Here I am “Mama Jeska” and nothing more or less; that suffices and that is all people need/want to know. My personal and professional lives are not calling cards as are my physical features: “Ohhh, yes, Mama Jeska,” they all say as they look from one to the other of us with a dawning recognition of some genetic similarities. My wrinkles are also interesting features [not apparent on Kenyan faces because of the beautiful skin tones and protective melanin] and I have been deemed to be probably 100 years old or at least 75.  I have found it actually freeing to be devoid of a past with all its trappings. It is enough to be me, in front of another, relating genuinely and openly.

So, what has happened to me during the last 6 weeks?

Fearful – The first week I was here, I wept quietly every night when I went to bed. I was overwhelmed by what I experienced. I was full of concern for my child who is here alone and lives not in a secure compound with other muzungus [foreigners], but with the Kenyan people. I was fearful every time I stepped into a crowded matatu. I refused to go anywhere alone and worried when Jess was apart from me. I worried about how people at home could understand this experience without being here. I worried about being hungry. I worried when I saw Jess’ sleeping quarters in the Maasai manyatta in the Rift Valley.
Jess with Rebecca and family in the manyatta where they all sleep together in one room.
Now as I prepare to depart, I am not without some basic level of concern  [inherent in parenting], but I am no longer obsessed with a fear for Jessica’s wellbeing. I have met her friends and they surround her with a blanket of protection and caring; and she responds in kind.

Jess and Nancy in her slum dwelling with son, Kimani
The teachers: Jessica and Janet in Ikiloret
Jessica and the Ikiloret children

Faithful – I thought I was someone who lived by faith. I found that what that looks like in the verdant pastures and warm kitchens of Minnesota is very different from what it calls for across the Rift Valley or within the slums of Kenya.

A view across the Rift valley

Street kids having devotions after playing ball in an open field
Fulfilled -
I have learned
  • That one eats to live/not lives to eat. I can survive on less variety eaten less often and life becomes less complicated – I need to keep this in mind.
  • That one can live with very few material things [although cell phones which are cheap in Kenya, are almost necessities] – I can learn to live with less and give away more.
  • That children here are God’s blessing and they are bountiful and unbelievably beautiful and I am more certain than ever that my lifetime of devotion to children was right and good. And I asked the director of the Baby House in Tigoni if I could come back and work there for several months. Who knows what God has in store…..

With children in Ikiloret
With children at Mahali Pa Watoto School
With abandoned babies at Baby Home in Tigoni
  •  Most importantly I have learned that my daughter has strength and courage, endurance and energy, toughness and tenderness. And that I could never begin to do this work in this place for this long. While I dread leaving her, I know that she is where she belongs for now and I have no doubt that she is allowing God to use her in powerful ways.
I believe that a picture is worth 1,000 words and so will leave you with these [very meaningful to me] lasting visual impressions;

Some of Jessica’s students in Ikiloret
Our baby Tamara in the tub
Tamara at the beginning of another day
Robin on a piki-piki
Giraffes seem majestic against the dawning sky
Mr. and Mrs. Lion quietly own the countryside
Baboons and  can be seen often

Memories of these 6 weeks will remain with me as will my gratitude to Jessica for her patience and love. I cannot imagine that I will not be back…..and will hope to bring some of you reading this along with me.

Wednesday, March 13, 2013

"It’s all about relationships, love, and sacrifice" by Robin and Jessica


It is not always physical bravery that counts. One must have the courage to face life as it is, to go through sorrows and always sacrifice oneself for the sake of others. [ Kipsigis Saying (Kenya)]
Translation………
If I give everything I own to the poor and even go to the stake to be burned as a martyr, but I don’t love, I’ve gotten nowhere. So, no matter what I say, what I believe, and what I do, I’m bankrupt without love. [1 Cor 13:3]
Analysis……
“The most important aspect of Christianity is not the work we do, but the relationship
we maintain and the surrounding influence and qualities produced by that relationship.
That is all God asks us to give our attention to, and it is the one thing that is continually
under attack.” [Oswald Chambers]

Robin:
Today due to road construction, we ended up lost in a slum. While Jess has no concerns and plenty of people she can quickly reach via cell phone for directions, I am a little more wary about what people might think this white woman is doing in a slum. Later in the same neighborhood as we entered a dark stairway up to a music recording studio to visit some friends of Jess’s, it was heartwarming to me when Millicent turned around and without a word, took my hand to lead me into more uncharted territory. For me, that small gesture was all about relationship, love, and sacrifice.

Millicent, Tamara and Robin at Kimuga fram
Jessica:
I sent mom with Grace to visit the manyatta of Joseph Kiranti’s family in Kibiko on Monday. Joseph has spinabifida and has had both his legs amputated. He is sponsored to attend a special school. Where Joseph lives is Maasai hill country and could be a movie set it is so beautiful. I wanted mom to meet Joseph and his mother Hannah and her many other children because they are such a loving family. You can’t help but come away from Joseph’s house without a warm fuzzy feeling in your chest.

While mom was in Kibiko, I went to Ngong to get Cecilia off to school again after mid-term break. Cecilia is so grateful to be in boarding school. I paid for her first term in school with my own money because I feared her staying idle in the slum. I am praying that God will raise up a sponsor for her so she can finish her education. While I was with her the taxi driver cum pastor who had taken her to school two weeks before called to ask me if I could assist a woman in his church who is living with HIV. I knew if people heard I helped Cecilia’s mother, who is also HIV positive, more would come! [More on that in a future blog].

And then James, the Maasai man, in whose house I stay at Ilkiloret had asked to meet with me. He brought along his nephew, Silas to translate. We talked about a young boy who lives with them who needs a sponsor and then he surprised me by telling me that while I was in the states they had been praying for me. “You are one of us,” James said. “Part of our family. You are always in our prayers.”

When I stay in Ilkiloret I always listen for my name as Rebecca prays in Maasai before we go to sleep. I thought she was just praying for me because I was under her roof that one night, but no…every night even when I was thousands of miles away, they prayed for me. That is relationship, love and sacrifice…

Joseph preparing to leave his family and return to school.

Robin is honored to be invited into the family manyatta.
On the way to Joseph's manyatta, we pass other Maasai.
Robin:
Some people here have chastised Jessica for taking in a 16-year-old street girl and her 2 month old baby. They worry about Jessica and whether at some point she will be hurt and ask if she knows what kinds of sacrifice this will entail on her part. But we know that God loves each of us and that we are to love each other and that love is action, not words, that love is self-giving and should be sacrificial and that it is all about relationships. In just a little over a week, our lives have been enriched by these two beautiful children of God….and when that precious baby coos at us, we forget about walking her in the middle of the night. 

Jess and I enjoying God's beautiful new gift of life, Tamara.
 Jessica: 
I was a little concerned about spending 12 weeks with my mother; 6 in the US and 6 in Kenya. That is a lot of togetherness for any mother and adult daughter but especially for two who haven’t lived on the same continent in a few years. It’s not that I don’t love my mother. I do. While we have gotten on one another’s nerves once in a while, I needn’t have been concerned. There is something so resilient about a mother/daughter relationship. I guess it’s the unconditional love, understanding of one another’s characters and the history that we share that has made this time together so easy. Mom was pretty skeptical about my choice to be a missionary because it meant not being financially independent. She understood my desire to serve and supported that…but was always hoping I would find another way to sustain it! Now she has seen my life in Kenya for herself. She has met my friends and seen the relationships I’ve built. She has seen the difference this ministry has made in the lives of the people assisted and in my life. And she has pronounced it good.
With Teddy B and Paul who helped make the "Umeniwezesha" video last year.
Robin:
On the 19th I have to leave, but I will go back home a different person than the one who arrived here 6 weeks ago. In my final blog at that time, I will tell you about things I have learned about Kenya, myself, and most importantly, my daughter.

Afterall, it is all about relationships, love, and sacrifice.

Wednesday, March 6, 2013

Our Household of Faith by Robin and Jessica

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There’s a nice chorus to a song about the household of faith:

We'll build a household of faith
That together we can make
And when the strong winds blow it won't fall down
As one in Him we'll grow and the whole world will know
We are a household of faith

Now to be a family we've got to love each other
At any cost unselfishly
And our home must be a place that fully abounds with grace
A reflection of His face

We are reminded of these words this week as we have added to the Hasslen Household in Ngong, Kenya. In the early years of her time in Kenya there was just Jessica. Then along came Judie.




Jessica:
There was no voice from heaven that led me to take Judie Makandi Mutea as my daughter. It was a gradual process that just naturally unfolded. For many years I just paid her school fees and she would stay with me when I was in the country. She called me mom but we had no legal documents that made it so. Then I got missionary status in Kenya and my own apartment and for the first time in 9 years we were a real family with a home to call our own. Judie will graduate from high school this year. She is anxious about what the future holds, scared that this will be the end of our family. Most orphans are insecure about the relationships in their lives. Judie is no different. She is always waiting for the other shoe to drop. No shoe will drop! She is the most important person in the world to me. I couldn’t love her more if I had given birth to her. As a poem hanging in my parents’ home says…”not flesh of my flesh, nor bone of my bone, but still miraculously my own!”

The actual dwellings changed over the years and Jess has lived in all kinds of houses from a Maasai manyatta in the Rift Valley,



to a one room apartment in Chogoria, to a room in a complex in Ngong, a farm place in the Rift Valley, to her present apartment in Ngong which is luxurious with its 3 bedrooms but plain with its basic furnishings and one spigot of hot water in the shower.


We have written in recent blogs about the street children who were temporarily boarding across the lane from Jessica.


In their midst was 16-year-old, Millicent, with a 7-week-old baby, Tamara. One day Jessica asked if Millie wanted to come over and do some laundry to earn a little money. [Note: It is customary in Kenya for most people to hire women to do some laundry or cleaning – as much to give them a little money as to have work done. In fact it is expected that one has some house help or one is stingy.] She brought her baby, did a marvelous job with the washing, and before she left, Jess had asked her about her story. With tears and haltering revelations, she told Jess about her difficult early life and how she ended up on the streets.  Before we knew it, God was leading Jess to ask Millie to share her home.


 Robin:
Millie and Tamara are now a part of this “household of faith”.  As the chorus states, we only need love each other unselfishly and provide grace upon grace for each other! Once again I wonder about the cost – can Jessica receive enough support to assist her with another mouth or two, can she walk a sick baby in the middle of the night, can she assist a 16-year-old to get back on her feet and some day complete her education, does she not need a little time to herself?

And then I find myself eagerly waiting to hear this beautiful baby’s first morning whimpers so that I can run in and clutch her to my chest and walk and sing and cuddle and look into her beautiful big brown eyes and wonder about her future.


How can that future be different now? What would it have been before last week?  And then I see Jessica assuming the “sho sho” [grandmother] role. And I hear her tell Millie that she should talk and sing to her baby, and show her how to bathe the little one who had never been fully bathed before [and LOVES it]. And then we hear Millie quietly crooning to the little one from her room and it warm our hearts.


And I know without a doubt that the words to this chorus are words of truth in THIS household. I KNOW that Jessica and Judie and Millie and Tamara will

…. build a household of faith
That together we can make
And when the strong winds blow it won't fall down
As one in Him we'll grow and the whole world will know
We are a household of faith

Now to be a family we've got to love each other
At any cost unselfishly
And our home must be a place that fully abounds with grace
A reflection of His face

Tuesday, February 26, 2013

And who is my neighbor? [Luke 10:29] by Jessica and Robin


One of the first things we are taught as children is the Golden Rule…Do Unto Others… At some point we graduate from that easy principle to one that tells us to love our neighbors as ourselves. At that point, the debate arises about WHO that neighbor is. The literal one, the next-door neighbor, the school friend...certainly not the ones who don’t look or talk or eat like we do; or the ones who might be dirty or ill.

Jess:
The first time I met Nancy was about a year and a half ago when she was working as a house help for a friend of mine. I didn’t really notice her, except that she had a one- year-old son who was really cute. I didn’t speak to her enough to even know if she could speak English very well. That friend got pregnant and let Nancy go, because Nancy was HIV positive and she didn’t want someone who was HIV positive around her baby.




In October of last year Grace, with whom I work here and who also knows Nancy, called me to let me know that Nancy was not doing well.  She did not have any work and was not able to buy enough food to stay on her ARVs.  I went to meet with Nancy to maybe do something small to help her and was immediately struck by the depth of her need. Over the next few months after we went to MSF (Medicines Sans Frontiers) to get her back into their HIV program, we got to know one another better. I called her every week once she was back on ARVs to make sure she was adhering to the drug protocol, I found friends to donate their used clothes for her to sell to earn money to feed her family, and when she had emergencies, no gas to cook with, not enough money for food, or extensive dental work…I did what I thought Jesus would do and I gave from my own funds to make sure she had food to cook, gas to cook it with and teeth that didn’t pain her when she chewed.

I asked for support through a blog and one friend in the US gave $100. Blessings to you my friend, you know who you are! But to everyone else Nancy was simply a sad far away story.

Robin:
Last week one day Jessica and I got off the mutate on Ngong Road and as usual, I followed a few feet behind her [always feeling safe in her presence]; this time into one of Kenya’s slums, past rows of squalid shacks with laundry hung out or little children playing in the dirt or people sitting and talking or selling whatever they had to sell. Once again the smells and sights tested my fortitude.  Suddenly a young woman, named Nancy, ran up and enfolded Jess in her skinny arms. She led us to her home, a room with two chairs and a table and curtains hung to hide the bed space. She had no money with which to pay the rent [$15/month] or buy food and certainly was unable to send Cecilia, her 14-year-old daughter to school. We had brought a friend who was on her way to a park for a picnic. She pulled out her sandwich [having to explain how to eat a sandwich], juice, chips, and chocolate and gave them to the family of 3. The three-year-old boy took a few chips at a time and went out the door to share them with his cousins who were delighted with the treat. I was moved that even in his hunger, this child shared with others.



Jess:
I sat in Nancy's house and talked to Cecilia about going to school. At first I told them I would pay 5,000/= shillings of the 17,500/= shillings she needed for school fees to go to high school and pay for the items she would need for boarding school. By the time I got home, I had decided God needed more time to work and I would pay the balance of her first term fees so that we would have an entire semester to find a sponsor for her. I know you expect me to use the money you donate for myself and my living expenses. But it is impossible to sit back and watch a 14-year-old have to wait to go to high school because of lack of fees. God will put it on the heart of someone who reads this blog to see the potential of this family and support God’s plan for their lives. Nancy, Cecilia and Kimani are my neighbors…is God calling you to be their neighbor too?



Robin:
When I voice concern about support for this work, I am reassured by Jessica that God always provides.  When I see the need, I am overwhelmed. But when I see on the Nomadic Chameleon Donor site that once again this month, a man has given $20 as he has for the last several years, and that a woman has sent $500 for a child’s education I am reminded of the power of God and the faith of His people...and I am humbled and grateful. Thank you, each and every one.


Robin and Jess:
Whether being a good neighbor is costly or time-consuming, whether it is indeed our neighbor or a stranger, someone who is struggling through a divorce or one who is living with HIV, we know we need to be walking alongside them in whatever capacity is needed.  A recent quote in an Upper Room devotion: Christ comes to us in every needy person. How can we possibly want to miss a single opportunity to meet our Savior in this way – through that particular person on that day with that need? Lord help us to be aware and available always.

Wednesday, February 20, 2013

Jesus Loves the Little Children: Another Blog from Mama Jeska



The comfort of the words, “Jesus loves the little children; all the children of the world. Red and yellow, black and white; they are precious in His sight….” must be the same for children all over the world.  Despite how some may fret over the political incorrectness of the skin color descriptors, they really are all inclusive – and for very young children, they are primary colors; easy for children to define and something to which they can relate.
                        
Today is the end of my second week in Kenya although it feels as if I have been here forever. I am accustomed to the jammed, noisy, dust-filled matatus. I enjoy the very basic foods of ugali, chipati, rice, potatoes, beans, and sukuma. Tea with milk and sugar is offered everywhere as is mango juice if one is fortunate. The sounds and smells are also becoming more comfortable to me, whether they are the crazy sounding birds, the chiseling of stone outside, the horns on matatus, or the street children across the way praising God upon their early rising.

But my greatest delight is in the children – and they are everywhere, and they are absolutely breathtaking, and they are simultaneously heartbreaking if they are homeless or begging or sitting placidly while flies cover their faces. But those are not all of the children; just the ones who pull most strongly on MY heartstrings. I would like to introduce you to a few:

School children
We have visited numerous schools and day cares and without exception, have found the children to be obedient, respectful, happy, and hard-working. The two photos below show primary school children at PCEA Emanyatta Primary school  inNgong Hills, sitting at their desks and the baby class napping on their communal mats.  The children are always happy to have visitors and will perform for us if asked. They each want to shake hands and know how to say “Hello” and respond with “Fine” when asked how they are. In the third photo, from the Kids for Christ Day Care Center, you will see a particularly precious child who was reticient to come too close but always had her eyes on us.

Street children
Since my previous blog introduced the street children, I will be brief here except to say that they have grown on me! You will note in the first photo below that we are enjoying each other’s company after lunch at the feeding program at Dagaretti Corners. The children love to muss up my hair and feel its texture and note its color. They also are not hesitant to rub their fingers over my wrinkles [which are a real oddity here because of the melanin in African skin]. [As an aside, while the street boys were eating lunch at the Wednesday feeding program., I was wearing my Obama T-shirt and told them that even THEY could be like Obama….and that night wrote to Obama and sent photos. I just can’t understand why I didn’t receive an immediate response from him!!!!!] 

Maasai children
It was particularly gratifying for me to accompany Jessica out into the Rift Valley to the small compound known as Ikiloret where she oversaw the building of a school room and helps to teach adults. The ride takes hours and for me was full of tension as we went over rutted and rock-strewn roads [or so-called roads] often waiting while Maasai herded their cattle or goats or donkeys out of the way. I couldn’t imagine Jess doing it on the back of a motorcycle. The scenery was spectacular but the heat was stifling, especially inside a manyatta or mud hut [but it was interesting….and somewhat difficult for me as a mother, to see the place where Jess stays when she is there]. The most unnerving aspect of being in Ikiloret, however was the flies. They are everywhere and one has to swat continuously. However, the Maasai do not swat….they live with the flies. The first photo is of one of the beautiful children with flies all over his face. They are just too adorable for description. The next photo is of Jessica as “the daughter” with the matriarch of the village. My heart is warmed by their acceptance of and love for her.



MY children
Most of you remember that Joel and I enjoyed 5 years as surrogate grandparents to “Buddha” [IbrannahOmwancha] who was born to a Kenyan mother in Minnesota and then sent to his father in Kenya at the age of 5. We were devastated yet knew that this was probably the best for Buddha. When we came to Kenya in 2008, we were able to spend several days with him but found it unbearably heartbreaking on both sides when we had to part again. Last Saturday we brought him home with us and then went to church together on Sunday before his Auntie, with whom he lives, came to pick him up. He is now 11 and like his “Nyanya Robin” adores little babies, as seen in the next photo. [The baby belongs to an 16 year old street child who is also across the lane from us]. We hope to spend more time together. The current plan is that Buddha and his auntie will come to MN for August, but plans are just that until they become realities. I no longer hold my breath or wish for the impossible.

The last photo is of me with Faith, one of my favorite street children. It was taken Wednesday night after church as we were having porridge before heading for a matatu trip home. In the evenings it gets chilly here and Faith had on a long-sleeved shirt which she gave to another orphan who wore only a tank top. I was deeply moved by her selfless tenderness and so cocooned her in my sweatshirt.  It exemplifies what I would like to do for all the precious children of the world – but it is what I KNOW Jesus has already done for all the children of the world, and for that I am eternally grateful and full of hope!

Wednesday, February 13, 2013

A Mother's Perspective


Looking out of the front window of Jessica’s apartment, I see first a Jacaranda tree with beautiful fuchsia flowers and then a little further out, I see a group of elderly men sitting on a pile of concrete slabs and hammering on them in the heat and dust of the roadway, and then just beyond that a wall behind which I can see the silhouette of a young boy in a tree.  The distance between me and the boy is not physically far, but between our worlds, there is no measurement that could possibly quantify that distance.  I am a relatively well educated, well off, healthy white woman and he is a very young, never schooled, homeless and poverty-stricken street boy. His story, and that of several others, follows:

“My name is Double. I am 6 years old.”  In broken English and with the help of a translator, the beautiful little African boy stood in front of me to relay the story of his life. 

The scene was a small room in a house across the dirt road from Jessica’s apartment in Ngong, Kenya. There were 21 of us packed like sardines with no ventilation. Jessica and I had brought them bags of groceries – staples like rice, flour, sugar, milk along with some juice and biscuits [sweet crackers]. We also brought blankets made by women at Bethlehem Lutheran church in the Midway in St. Paul.  They had no blankets and only recently had acquired some mattresses from a generous donor.

They each received a cup of juice and a biscuit. I watched in awe as they each sat patiently while everyone was served. No one even tried to taste a cracker. Then all was silent as one of the little boys began to pray. It went something like this:

Dear Heavenly Father, we thank you for these biscuits and juice. We thank you for taking care of us.  Thanks for the visitors who have come. Bless those who have nothing. In the name of the Father, Son, Holy Spirit, Amen.

As this was being prayed, a little girl was snuggling into my side and rubbing my leg. She was also 6 and also beautiful and also starved for affection. When the prayer was over it was difficult for me to look up because I was ashamed of my tears – and more so, ashamed of all the times I have felt needs or wants or felt sorry for myself or felt slighted etc etc.


Tracy, the 23-year-old Kenyan woman who took in these children [after Jessica found the house] is an amazing woman of faith who talks about how God provides for them. Every Sunday she hauls all 18 children to church and prays that God will send money for transportation costs for the whole group. And He does!  She was beyond delighted when Jessica presented her with a computer that Hal Spann donated and then the food and blankets were an extra bonus.  I asked if I could hear some of the children’s stories. Here are the first of many:


Double’s Story: Age 6
Double ended up on the street because his younger sister got cancer and was hospitalized. His mother was unable to pay the bill and so she has been detained by the hospital for 2 years!!! [We have since been told by some missionary doctors that hospitals are not allowed to do this, so not sure what the real story is here]. He was taken in by a drug peddler who uses young street children to beg for drugs. Double slept in some stalls in the marketplace and there he met Mikey and Peter and the three boys stuck together and heard about a project in Nairobi and that they could receive free food on Wednesdays. After going to the project, they met Tracy who took them in.

Mikey’s Story: Age 8
Mikey was a street boy because his mother had an accident and died, and his father was a drunk and an addict. He begged at Nakkumat Junction, a popular location for tourists. He also slept in market stalls. One day a man came to him and talked of a big house and told him many lies, such as the fact that he would buy him donuts. Mikey followed him to the house to find it was a vacant building. The man continued to hound Mikey and ended up molesting and raping him.  Then Mikey began hanging out with 5 other boys. One night the old man brought 5 other men to rape the 6 boys, but the boys had found a dog who they named Scooby, who barked enough to give them time to escape from the men.  Tracy found the boys and took them to the hospital. This is currently a police case.

Charles’ Story: Age 14
Charles’ mother beat him, and so to avoid that daily ordeal, he went to the streets. He lived by collecting and selling scrap metal. On the streets he met Martin and several other boys who worked and slept together. He and the other boys sometimes resorted to using drugs or sniffing glue to keep from being too hungry or cold. He also found out about the project and then met Tracy and came to live with her.

Martin’s Story: Age 14
Martin lived with his grandmother in Kapsebit [probably 6 hours from Nairobi] but at 14 decided to go to Nairobi and find his mother. He was able to get a ride from a police officer. When he got to Nairobi he was amazed at the size and number of buildings. He saw his mom on the street one day. She was a maid in Westlands but would not acknowledge him because she was ashamed of him. She finally took him home but would not tell him who his father was and brought different men home every night and beat Martin. He finally left to “struggle” on the streets. He collected metals and begged. Sometimes he was given shoes or bread by generous passers by. He met a group of boys who worked and slept together and eventually met Tracy. He says now, “I am thanking God. I have a new family and I call Tracy, “mom”.”



There were two boys who were not present to tell THEIR stories because prior to their being admitted to the “house” they were spending the night in a ditch when they overheard some men breaking in to a stall across the road. They rose up in the ditch and called out the men’s names. In response, the men came after them and murdered them on the spot. Who would know that they are gone? By whom are they missed? Without ever having met them, I will remember them forever…

Jess and I came back across the alley, climbed the stairs, unlocked the doors, and sat and wept.  And I thought back to the days when I graduated from college and chose to live in the little shack in eastern Kentucky and asked my mother where God was and why there was such inequality in the world. Now 40 years later, I am still asking that question…

Today we will go with Tracy to look for another house because she cannot afford to pay the rent here. Tomorrow I will go with some Swiss missionaries to a day care they help to sponsor and perhaps I can offer some very small witness of Christ’s love in my tenderness to the babies.

Today is the end of my first week in Kenya and even at my age, I have learned some valuable lessons. And I know why Jessica is here, and I am in awe of her in this setting, and although my motherly concerns will never cease, my sense of God’s call to her and His blessings on her are stronger than ever.